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Работа моего погибшего 6 лет назад брата. Год написания - 1998 - самое начало 1999.



Sometimes I feel, that my breath coming fastly, and my heart proceedes to speed.

And somtimes, I feel, that my lungs are ready for preparing to blow.

That all means in case of my organizm capabilites.



When he arised, and the great war begans, then the most powerful creature camed to our world. That was an Ancor - blood of Sea. When he walkd besides the river, green leaves trembled in fear. When he camed down by mountain - stones becamed pink and Shining. So was the bear of reaver.



My style of speaking becomes simlify. I can not let my thinks out - either my thought is to quick, or I become more same to people in outlook. My seeing has been changed. I don't even know, how will I see in some years. My gifts have a high price, as I see. I have a little obsession - I mean the subject of my mind, that plot of my thought in free tine, it is often have the same background. I mean x-10. Truly, gifts have a high price. That, what I can, is more, then understandable, but as it was told, it is more hard to me now to describe just part of that, what am I thinking for.



X-10, subject of my mind. I think, I become in love. White face near

the 22-th block, brown eyes, laughy smile. I saw in my life three beautiful girls - 1-couple of hours, 2-3 seconds. X-10 is the third. I know her almost a year, and I do not know, how long my shocker will stay inactive. I mean, that my psy-shoker will be active in case of extremely activity of the feelings, and then I'll lost my thoughts. It is like a drug - I mean addiction to another person. As the light changing and thoughts increasing, my mutations increasing. It is a hard to say, how I see now. It could looks like a two either independent analisators. and I have a theory about it, there is spoken about difference and diversity between the halfmarbles. As I think, Both of them in my cranium-had (good example, is not it?) work like a single brain. I have no good feelings about The Amphore with the Vine. Difference is to great (what the hell am talking on? Of course there is a diversity, between me and every human in this world. I don't know anybody, who will be able to highspeed data communication. But maybe, I have never tried on nobody, with exception of Alin, and that try was to weak.) I hope make a Link with her. And I wish it be to-sided. There it was told.



X-10, laughly person. She have changed her pace to sit with me, and not only me - between me and not me. Laughly face, kitten eyes - it looks like somebody, but I can not and I will not remember, whom. I saw the similarity of this kind at second - She brought the pictures, and so do I. X-10, do not know, how long more will I be addicted to you. If I don't see you just several ours in the building - addiction fades, But as long I see you, as rise my addiction. I don't fell the necessity to focus my eyes (almost) on the surrounding things. My eyes do not need uninterruptible full level of detalisation any more. It becomes a such as looking at rendering view - good, but worthless on the known objects.





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